Chapters. {poetry}
Tomboy turned natural beauty,
long red and black hair
pulled back in a messy bun.
Clothes being folded,
make-up being sorted,
21 years of this and that
being packed
into a mere two suitcases.
I am close by
trying not to hover.
Dabbing my eyes
that refuse to stay dry.
Coming up with this and that
for you to take
on your journey.
Each time you glance
in my direction,
I feel my eyes well up.
You tell me, ever so softly,
“It’s ok to cry, Momma,
I’m gonna cry too,”
you say.
I am overcome with memories.
Octobers filled with
Pink Power Rangers, Pikachus,
and zombie cheerleaders.
Weighing bags of candy
collected in pillowcases.
Decembers filled with magic,
barbies and doll houses
gave way to cosmetics,
and clothes.
Your eyes always bright
with anticipation,
full of excitement,
no matter your age.
Teen years filled
with scattered emotions.
Hair in shades or reds,
pinks, and blues.
The year of the platinum blonde.
Your first heartbreak,
a friend who stabbed you
in the back.
Tears flowed from
your blue eyes.
As I promised,
you would heal,
and you did.
I watch you now,
my ears assaulted
by the silent
tick-tock
of digital clocks.
Time moving
at break-neck speeds,
bringing us closer
to a new chapter
in our lives.
Where you wake
yourself in the mornings,
Make your own
grilled cheese with pickles,
and where you decide
when you will
call me to tell me
of your adventures.
I catch glimpses
of your face as you
flutter about,
putting the finishing touches
on what is to be your past,
your childhood,
your life before
what your future brings.
It’s time to say our goodbyes.
For now, not forever.
Both of us,
tears flowing freely
hugging so tight,
I know when I let go
it is to set you free.
To write those chapters.
Love and life
forge ahead.
*****
Vanessa Jasek is a wife and mother of four kids. She is a student pursuing a Liberal Arts Degree after a long career in Human Resources. Vanessa is now an author that is following a new path in life, a brilliant path of words, mysteries that unravel as each new word appears on the screen. She loves to read. She loves her two bulldogs. Life is good.