My Beloved. {poetry}
As I stand here by the grave
Looking down at what once was
Recalling the memories made
The hardships, the pain,
The joys, the dreams,
Every single one
As precious as the last.
So long had I kept you on life support
Trying so hard to hang on
Not let go
Hoping that you would rise up
Ready to have fun
Ready to fly
Ready to fight again
You fought so valiantly in every battle,
Retained my freedom in every war
Never compromising
Ensuring my reign forever
And forevermore my heart will be grateful
But it was time to let you burn
Set fire to all that had been
Let the warrior rest in peace
So another could rise in its place
And what was promised
Would rise from the ashes
Ready to take its place
In a world full of unknowns
The past and the present
Cannot coexist in this life
Only one can prevail
And to live in the past
Is to live in sorrow and regret
Longing for what once was
And never looking to what could be
So, as I turn my eyes to the sun
I set sail on a journey
Discovering new things
Leaving the old things to be just a memory
To remind me of how far I’ve come
And what I am capable of
Goodbye, sweet soul
You bore much and survived more than foretold
Now it’s time to rest
And let the new take hold
Leading me down a path unknown
It breaks my heart to bury you
My beloved warrior and friend
My tears set fire to every inch of your lifeless body
But it must be done
I cannot live while you endure
Too many scars and deformities
Remain in what you are
And now I let waves of the ocean wash over me,
The wind spin me round and round.
Take me to a distant land
So my past is never found.
Goodbye, beautiful dreams
Those that kept me alive these many years
You protected me
Pushed me to keep going
When I could stand no more
Many times, you were all I clung to
But I will imprison you no more
And instead set my sights on a new horizon
Willing to let what is to come, be.
And no matter what that means
I will not turn my head
Or dwell on the past anymore
If you are to be
My dreams, you will return to me
And I will fulfill every piece of you
Sparing no expense
To the best of my being
And make sure you come true
Scared and uncertain
I step forward
Like a phoenix taking its first flight
Praying, hoping that maybe
Everything will be better
Perhaps new dreams will come
A new goal
A new future
One that I otherwise would have never dreamed of
A place where happiness is never lost
One thing is for certain
Nothing will be the same
And if and when I return to this distant land
I will be
Forever changed.
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Karen Kirby is a southerner who loves theatre and poetry. She believes these are the two best ways to spotlight problems and emotions in the world that are often swept under the rug. Today’s society does not always allow a person to express their deep emotions or feelings. They are often deemed ‘sensitive’ or ‘crazy’ even for expressing how they truly feel. Yet in poetry and theatre one can express these deep emotions without ridicule. This is why she writes. So that those who feel as deeply as her never feel alone.
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