Eff the Blocks: Learn What’s Really Going On.
For as long as I can remember, ever since I’ve been on my self-help journey, I’ve been saying I have blocks.
Blocks around money. Blocks that keep me from feeling worthy of having a successful business. I’ve experienced both catharsis and conflict at the idea of having blocks.
There’s tremendous relief in labeling my struggles, but it also feels incredibly disempowering. It’s as if there’s an invisible wall keeping me from my true desires. How can I possibly overcome a wall, an esoteric one at that? And the idea that I created it makes it all the more infuriating!
No matter how much all the self-help books insist that my blocks are a reflection of my thoughts and I can shift them, I’m at a complete loss. I don’t remember building these walls. How am I supposed to dismantle them?
It left me feeling helpless. I buried my confusion by throwing everything I could at it: talk therapy, journaling, energy healing, mindset coaching, forgiveness work, crystal therapy, or that egregious investment on a coach who did more harm than good, but that’s another story. I was seething with disappointment and resentment toward her.
She rejected exploring any area of soul work that had substance and kept things light, but that’s never worked for me. And I struggled.
Meanwhile she was manifesting $40k in a week, saying that she doesn’t believe in blocks and that’s how she called in the money. This made me feel like such a failure! I wanted so much to feel differently, but I knew I couldn’t force it. Pretending I don’t feel like I have blocks wouldn’t have served me, and it made my soul cringe. Lying to further my agenda doesn’t sit well with me.
I knew there was another way. I just didn’t know what it was. Then one day I was blessed with the most empowering clarity that gave oxygen to my soul. It didn’t ignore my blocks, the elephant in the room, but it was no longer an overwhelming disillusion.
Instead of saying I have blocks, I say I have an attachment or a distortion.
I don’t have money blocks, I have an attachment to my current income because it’s offering me a sense of safety, security, and insulation from my fears of the other side, this other side where all my dreams are met. Sometimes I bury these fears from my consciousness.
Now instead of being overwhelmed by the pressure and urgency to remove this self-sabotaging wall, I have more emotional clarity and energy to explore what this actually means for me.
The truth is, I don’t have blocks around money. There’s no entity that’s keeping us apart. Money’s always been patiently waiting for me to welcome it into my life, always close by, but I was the one hiding from it. I unconsciously rejected it with my distorted perception of my worthiness. Distortion’s a more honest and holistic explanation than worthiness blocks because sometimes I feel grossly inadequate.
Sometimes I know I’m brilliant, fascinating, engaging, insightful, holistic, altruistic, and deserving of generous financial compensation for what I have to offer.
So it’s not a block. Sometimes my perception gets distorted like an unflattering angle that makes your body look different from how it actually does. In my case, my breasts might look bustier than it actually is or cardboard flat, which is paradoxically a wildly inappropriate and perfect analogy of my fluctuating perception of reality.
It’s time for all of us to remember how freaking amazing we truly are. Sometimes we’ll forget and briefly believe the lies. That’s when it’s time to clear those distorted views and crystallize your perception.
Doesn’t this feel so much more empowering and liberating? No more denying or wrestling your feelings. Sink into the truth of their presence and release the illusions in a more tangible way. It’s an incredible way to anchor yourself more deeply into your soul’s truth. Eff the blocks! It’s energizing to know that you don’t have to change. You don’t have to do something more.
You don’t have to tackle this impossible wall of a block, while shaming yourself and doubting yourself for creating it. We all have what it takes to clear these distortions! It activates the truth that there’s nothing innately wrong with us. You don’t have to self-improve or get better. All you have to do is remember who you are. Marinate in this and witness your visceral shifts.
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Jaymie Yang is a nonconformist who supports wildly non-traditional women. She’s a Mindset Coach and Energy Healer. She’s also a workshop host, public speaker, content writer, and an empath described as a badass energy bitch who feels everything. Her passion is to navigate women who are exploding with brilliant ideas, and streamlining a soulfully strategic and practical process to help them design the life of their dreams.