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My Declaration Of Creativity And Love.

Artwork: Jody Steel.{Artwork: Jody Steel — on her own leg}

Hunger has always shown me the way.

My emotional hunger and my years of a troubled relationship with food have always shown me where I’m disallowing the Divine Flow, where I’m hiding my longing or where I’m squashing my creativity… where I’m not telling my truth but instead swallowing it along with a bar of chocolate to ease the bitter taste of self-betrayal.

It’s only now, as I sense that I’m really stepping into my life purpose and that I’ve graduated from the process of becoming myself, that I see what the food-addictions, eating disorders and problems were about.

They were driving me towards just that: myself — toward the expression of my being, my unbridled creativity, my greatness and my light. As I’ve been opening the floodgates to my creative expression, I’m awestruck by this force, the sheer force of the creative impulse pushing to get through the ego-ridden filters and layers of conditioning. Why is this important to talk about, you may ask? It is important because creativity is freedom. It is absolute self-sufficiency. No wonder we’re not taught to be truly creative at school, a system that puts numbers on each individual and has a hard time understanding the limitlessness of absolute creativity.

Don’t get me wrong; discipline is needed for creativity to blossom. But it can never act as a substitute.

So, back to hunger… hunger for many of us has become a way of life.

Sometimes we’re so hungry that we don’t even feel it anymore. We’re hungry for meaning, for life, for love. For me, hunger represents emptiness. For me it’s associated with death and loss of the physical body. But unlike death which is a kind of limitlessness and infinite spaciousness, hunger is a kind of talking void, a vacuum that actively asks to be filled and also gets associated with lack, scarcity and all other kinds of suffering.

The feeling of physical hunger has been one of the scariest things for me personally: What will I do with that emptiness inside? How do I fill this, make it go away? This feeling has been followed by shakiness and jitters as cellular memories of scarcity and death are triggered.

Physical hunger has been the painful reminder of another emptiness deep inside that doesn’t bear to be spoken. (That huge space where my creativity is now living and thriving.)

My experience is that we carry memories deep within us, but also learn to be hungry in many more ways than just physical food-related hunger.

There are millions of commercials telling us what to want and what to be hungry for. Mainstream society and media are constantly telling us what we should first want and then how to still our wanting by pointing at what we should consume.

We are being bombarded with an ideal of all round perfection that can never be attained; it’s like eating candy instead of food; it gives an initial buzz and then makes the blood sugar levels drop, triggering a deeper feeling of hunger.

We live in a society that demands that we stay hungry. It feeds us with images and rules of being that have no substance; that ultimately leave us feeling empty inside and keep us coming back for more. We’re taught to be hungry for a new pair of shoes, a bigger car, a slimmer body, a certain amount of money, fill-in-the-blank, and it’s never enough. And it will never be enough.

What truly satisfies us is connection and self-expression.

Connection. To another human being, to a group, to an animal, to your own Soul, to a spiritual path.

Connection to something living that makes you feel alive and seen and accepted. Self-expression in any form that paints your sense of being, sings your feelings or exposes your truth.

So now I’m asking you the same questions I asked myself:

What are you hungry for? Why do you want? Do you need to be feeling hungry in your life? Where are you putting your fulfillment and contentment on hold? Where did you learn that you should be collecting scraps on the sidelines? What rules are you holding yourself hostage by (can’t/couldn’t/shouldn’t/not allowed/not good enough/etc.)?

There’s a cure for the hunger. And that cure is called creativity.

It doesn’t matter what you create as long as it expresses itself as you. As you create from your original originality, you free yourself. You become unrestricted by rules, regulations, conventions and cultural mores. You are that being that is creating and as that is being created. You flow on both sides of the matrix. And no one can hold you down, because you are that force.

You are that God that seeks expression through your form and your unique composition. Can you see how beautiful it all is? Can you see how beautiful you are?

And at this moment of creation and creativity you are sufficient, contented and enough. There are no needs because there is only abundance. There is your richness of being. There is no place for hunger inside you anymore. There is only room for joyful expansion and a deepened contentment.

Here’s the million-dollar question: Do you dare to become satisfied?

Do we dare to let our hungers dry up and be contented with who we are, with what we have? Do we dare to start feeling good, Divine, exactly where we are right now? Or do we make up conditions on how it’s supposed to look or feel or what enough-ness and creativity is for us?

Let’s do it together, right now. We are that love, that creativity, that Divine Force in action.

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Saran Kaur

Saran Kaur

Saran Kaur is a creative being, working with healing in the form of energy, music, voice, movement and Yoga. On her life journey so far, she has successfully used these tools to transform and heal herself and her life. She now facilitates and supports the healing, transformation and creativity of others. She's a classically trained singer and musician, Internationally certified Kundalini Yoga teacher and Reconnective Healing practitioner. She also conducts readings of the Akashic Records to help people understand and transform their lives. She's currently studying to become a Shakti Dance teacher as well. She successfully healed her body from 13 years of Systemic Candidiasis and Rheumatoid Arthritis using natural healing methods. She considers the body the home of her spirit and the soil of all creativity of the mind, and so an integral part of the human experience, and absolutely vital to be in touch with as a woman and as a human. She strongly believes that self-love is the true soil that nurtures the love that we extend to others. For more Saran -- Yoga, healing, music and more -- please visit her here.
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