Dirty Shamana. {book preview}
When forced to meet the people buying my art for thousands of dollars, I felt intensely uncomfortable. They were too clean. Too reserved. Too shiny. Not my people.
Browsing Tag:
darkness
The Truth Beneath The Masks We Wear.
Have I become so comfortable in my discomfort, so accustomed to dying in my daily living, that I now embody a midnight mask to replace the false cheeriness of my childhood's plight? And what if I am not either or, but both, strands of black and gold that weave the web of my spider's heart?
I Do Have Moments Of Love, Even With My Eating Disorder.
Unlike the two-year-old who doesn't realize how important that answer is, someone with an eating disorder gets it. Gets that if she can just figure out how, maybe all the pain and fear and hatred and sorrow and guilt and shame and secrecy and torment could be gone. And that's all she wants. ...
Learning To Love Your Shadow.
We all have things about ourselves that we don’t particularly like. But if we can look at those parts of us and understand why they’re there, we can see why we’re triggered in certain situations, and start to free ourselves from the unconscious patterns that we otherwise play out over and over again.
She Stood Alone On The Edge Of Darkness. {poetry}
The sun was setting, salmon clouds under a sky of Dodger blue, flocks of geese on a sprawling lawn.
A waxing gibbous moon beckoned like she needed a guide, a divine light.
What We’re Missing Lies In Our Struggle.
The world can be rough and tough, and pretending that the happy and shiny things in life are the means to transcending our individual inner demons does not help anyone find wellness. The happy and whole and healthy moments of our lives are the rest and rejuvenation from the harder times.
Marker In The Woods: Using Discernment As A Tool To Better Understand Life.
If we can observe an instinct, emotion or quality through the lens of having both a positive and negative expression, we can build our discernment in any given circumstance to aid in reclaiming our sovereignty through trusting our inner sight. Here are a few examples of how we can use this tool ...
The Very Near Death Of A Holy Heart And The Solitude of Knowing. {poetry}
I learned that this is what happens with hearts that need to be buried,
and souls that have gotten too heavy and weary:
It’s Okay To Rest In The Waves Of Your Darkness.
In order for us to know light, we must know the dark; in order for us to know pleasure, we must know pain; in order for us to know creation, we must know destruction.
Honoring The Truly Authentic Part Of Me, And Loving My Darkness.
And believe me, when I say that I love my darkness, I do not mean that I love to suffer.