You have so much spirit. To keep looking for love in spite of the bullies, in spite of your difficulty communicating with the multitudes of slower thinkers.
What I was feeling, all that emotional pain, would allow me to get to know, love and accept myself more and to also have greater compassion for others.
Gemini is an inventive, literary and clever sign, so this time in your life, if approached with mindfulness, could assist you in gaining greater clarity.