Some sought alternative God-sources, but ones lost from the original purity and free love. Instead, they created religions based on guilt, shame and fear.
When I say the words god, faith, sacred, holy, I remember C.G. Jung's response to a journalist when asked if he "believed in God." Jung said, "I know God."
We seemed so different on the outside. Different upbringings, lifestyles, religion, even different-colored skin. I used to look at my arm lying over your body in wonder of how different and beautiful it looked. Light against dark. But I think on the inside we always knew, we are the same, you and I.
Perhaps you put all your faith in a particular religion, and worship its god and holy saints? You read the scriptures, discipline yourself according to their rules, and fervently pray for your life to get better? What if you are actually projecting your own power onto that religion or god, ...
Consider the keepers of natural religion. Consider how its explanations rankle reason and insult sense. Therein flares reason’s folly because some things are inexplicable. They must be accepted instead, however absurd they seem.