You’re going to have to look for a new safety net, because as being stoned is already part of your daily routine, it’s not going to be able to help you escape your anxiety anymore.
Forgive yourself -- you are innocent. Forgive your cousin -- he was weak and impulsive and is probably living with his guilt. Forgive your parents -- they were scared and weak.
A deeper cut reveals a culture of psychopathy: a party sickened by its hatred, misogyny and xenophobia; grown too accustomed to deceit; blaming others for its missteps; compromised by a paralysis of ideas; resorting to character assassination and abject humiliation of perceived enemies; ...
This is why you fell in love with men from foreign lands. This is why you spent time outside the States and listened to views of others who had different upbringings and attitudes than you.
A key reason the masculine in me is so wounded that he can't step up and catch my feminine when she falls is because he was not allowed to do his job when he most needed to in my life. Instead of being my inner hero, he became my wounded critic. He was castrated.
These pussies that are so easily disregarded, objectified, used and abused are the same ones that you pass through to come into this world and take your very first breath.
Now I understand, now I see, now I am aware... I can look into my soul, digging deeper and deeper, until I touch upon the root of my pain -- I see that when you abused me, it always triggered the same reaction. Whether you were my parent, lover, friend or colleague… whether the hurt was big or ...
The one thing we all, women and men alike, need to remember is that people will only love you as much as you love yourself. That includes taking care of yourself physically, mentally, and emotionally. You can’t expect someone to respect your vessel if you abuse it, be that with drugs, alcohol, ...